I Want To Quit

I've been completely focused on my web site for the past 3 days and finally making some progress I have to say. But..if you're planning on building a website be prepared for much more work than originally anticipated, especially if you're selling products. Taking pictures of the jewelry alone takes hours and hours of shooting and re-shooting to get the color just right without shadows. Then manipulating those to the right size, brightness, etc. in Photoshop takes hours and hours. Then you're ready to load them into the website along with the description for each. Then comes the writing and there's alot of writing for as many pieces as I have. Are you tired yet? I am so tired of spending every waking moment on this. I want to quit!!!!

Tomorrow I have to work at the Ranch. Actually, we have a meeting with an agency that is coming to teach us how to write an effective resume. The thought of that makes me want to throw up. Interviewing and being out there pounding the pavement is more horrifying. I might be unemployed in less than 60 days. I say "might" because I was asked if I would consider staying on after the 60 days to facilitate the weddings. However, they don't know what the pay will be, whether or not it will be contract or employee status, etc. Bascially, they know nothing other than the weddings will continue. It's the first glimmer of hope though. You'd think I'd be more excited and praising God. Instead, I'm just one big complainer today. What's up with that? Thank God He's patient and full of mercy. He's up there shaking His head at me today because I am failing the test miserably.

Do you ever feel overwhelmed? Between the Ranch, my website, small group, my home duties and always thinking about how I'm neglecting my workouts, I feel like I'm not doing anything right. I want to quit everything! I need to look up scriptures on perseverance and believing God. Hey, where's my little scripture book? That should be right beside me for moments like these.

Why in the world am I writing this? And why in the world would anyone care to read the writings of such a whiner? Does anybody else relate to this? One day you're up, the next you're down. Ha Ha...that makes me think of a line in How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days. "You're up, you're down, you're here, you're there, you're like a frickin' one woman circus." Yup, that's me right now. Tune in tomorrow folks when I'll be up, hopefully for all of you!